lately....
...I've been crocheting, this is Charlee's rainbow zebra
well 3/4's of him anyway, still have to finish up his legs and give him some nostrils....i still think he looks like a giraffe but she is convinced he is a Zebra so that's all that matters.
Planted these guys...i'm not holding out much hope for them considering my track record though...
Charlee has been obsessively scrapping and crafting, i cleaned out my stash the other day and gave her a whole heap of old stuff, so she is in cutting and pasting heaven right now....
I have also been a bit down lately trying to decide if i want to have another baby or not. If i do i'd like to keep the age gaps fairly small which would mean falling pregnant sometime in the next 12 months, otherwise i just don't think i could do it. But Luke still isn't that keen and i'm still all over the place with my decision. I think i need to make a definite decision yes or no sometime in the next 6 months. I have been so clucky for months but whenever i'm faced with the question yes or no i still say maybe... the time for maybes is over..we need to decide and luke is hopeless at any kind of decision making...
i love being a mum. I know i may bitch and moan about them constantly but deep down i love it. I love washing their hair, i love getting them dressed, i love cuddles, teaching them things, making them things. Feeding them, cooking for them, folding their itty bitty clothes. Watching them grow and learn and laugh...i love it...
in my opinion it's now or never but the thought of never makes me really upset because i know I'm not done yet...i just know i'll regret it 10 years down the track if we don't have another. And i don't want to wait another 3-4 years because then the age gaps between kids would be way too big...see...dilemma.














































